beware the days off

now

dont get me wrong

40 hours

paycheck to paycheck

will kill you

 

but still

it keeps you

from waking up

next to a woman

you dont want to be there

but you dont mind

so much

when

shes face down in your lap

because you stop thinking

about

running out of toilet paper

and paying your car insurance

and the bombing of kosovo

and the colombine massacre

and the red sox lack of home run power

and how much you miss

her

and

then she says

LETS TALK ABOUT SOMETHING

BESIDES SEX

and you start thinking

about everything

again

and after a minute of silence

that mite as well have been

12 hours

or a month

or the rest of your life

you roll over and pour yourself

another drink

and she says

CAN I HAVE SOME

TOO

 

and when

she finally leaves

after youve made excuses

about errands to run

and bills to pay

that will leave you broke

you walk to the take out

for something to eat

but the line is long

longer that you are willing to wait

for your next drink

and in two more drinks

you wont be hungry

anymore

anyways

so you walk

back

looking for her car

among the afternoon traffic

though you know

its not there

because you were

the one who identified her body

 

and crossing the tracks

more than metaphorically

you wonder

would i get out of the way

if a train came by rite

now

liking to think you wouldnt

the way you wanted

to jump into the grave

with her

so they would throw the dirt over you

too

but knowing

youd move

because you are

too much of a coward

for

forever

and all eternity

 

then home

and a silent toast

to her

and more

empty pages

to fill

the hours with what was

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